>>8974
Not millionaire feeler. Just a friendless feeler who doesn't talk to anyone outside the family he lives with or know how to. Although I did get better enough over the years that I could go outside with reduced anxiety, used to be worse. I do have a job though since I was 25 so I am probably less dysfunctional in that regard and that is the main reason I had to force myself to go out and it
Mostly stemmed from being afraid to disappoint my parents and sink deeper. The job was mostly very lucky though and I think the vast majority of jobs I would fail at or be miserable at, and I barely hold on as it is and see myself probably quitting and never working again someday
#8979
4 days ago
The wizcat is much better now. Still sneezing sometimes but no other symptoms and eating heaps of food
#8975
4 days ago
>>8971
its not a competition. i can tell from the fact that you're scared to go outside and have ptsd flash backs that you're extremely ill.
#8974
i felt completely accepting of my death since it was an mdma-like research chemical. i was debating whether to get help at all but decided i didnt really want to die. my suicide attempt was journal worthy because i used the notorious euthanasia drug to try do it. it was like the first case like it in australia. but my name and stuff is heavily redacted in the records and anonymised.
its not a competition. i can tell from the fact that you're scared to go outside and have ptsd flash backs that you're extremely ill.
#8974
i felt completely accepting of my death since it was an mdma-like research chemical. i was debating whether to get help at all but decided i didnt really want to die. my suicide attempt was journal worthy because i used the notorious euthanasia drug to try do it. it was like the first case like it in australia. but my name and stuff is heavily redacted in the records and anonymised.
>>8970
how did the drug overdose feel? was it peaceful?
why was your suicide attempt journal worthy?
>>8971
are you the millionaire? lol
it's hard to find people as messed up as me. even on wizchan i'm probably in the bottom percentile of functioning. maybe there's drug addicts but they can still get clean one day, i'll never be able to change my personality, or stop being a disgusting ogre freak...
how did the drug overdose feel? was it peaceful?
why was your suicide attempt journal worthy?
>>8971
are you the millionaire? lol
it's hard to find people as messed up as me. even on wizchan i'm probably in the bottom percentile of functioning. maybe there's drug addicts but they can still get clean one day, i'll never be able to change my personality, or stop being a disgusting ogre freak...
>>8953
Thanks for sharing (my first comment in this thread) I might not be as messed up as you but I hope I'm close enough to give you a sense of company here on the soupchan
Thanks for sharing (my first comment in this thread) I might not be as messed up as you but I hope I'm close enough to give you a sense of company here on the soupchan
>>8969
suicide attempt (was serious enough to make it into a medical journal), drug overdose from being a retard that didn't care about anything, and negative drug interaction that was just bad luck
suicide attempt (was serious enough to make it into a medical journal), drug overdose from being a retard that didn't care about anything, and negative drug interaction that was just bad luck
>>8953
i have all the same symptoms as you right down to the reliving traumatic cringe memories. ive almost died many times from different causes too. each time, it did tremendous psychological damage and make me much less resilient.
i think that over a long period the stress wore down my mind so that traumatic memories from my past started to intrude more and more. i don't think about my near death experiences. just all the times ive done something cringe, been bullied, harassed, made mistakes, regrets... all my worst experiences all the way back to like 6 years old.
i can remember being dressed up in the cringe school uniform for my first day of school.
i have all the same symptoms as you right down to the reliving traumatic cringe memories. ive almost died many times from different causes too. each time, it did tremendous psychological damage and make me much less resilient.
i think that over a long period the stress wore down my mind so that traumatic memories from my past started to intrude more and more. i don't think about my near death experiences. just all the times ive done something cringe, been bullied, harassed, made mistakes, regrets... all my worst experiences all the way back to like 6 years old.
i can remember being dressed up in the cringe school uniform for my first day of school.