Soupchan - Feel #2342

#2342 3 weeks ago

my life currently:
>wake up
>remember who i am
>blurt out "you should kill yourself"
>distractions
>cringe memory
>blurt out "you should kill yourself"
>distractions
>forced social interaction (it goes badly)
>blurt out "you should kill yourself"
>daydream about tulpa as i drift of into sleep
>cringe memory
>blurt out "you should kill yourself"

idk why but there's like a pressure in my head and i have to say something out loud like i have Tourette's but it's exclusively about wanting to kill myself. good thing the aul ma's hearing isn't the best, i say it to myself like 20 times lol

#2344 3 weeks ago

This must be a normal thing amongst us types because I do the same. I do it less often now. More often when I have those memories I think "It's all over now" because the memory is in the past

#2390 3 weeks ago

lol I do finger gun into my temples like at least twice or thrice a day, I always make sure no one's watching when I do. feelers stronger together.