imagine you wake up one day and matthew announces Mana token is public and now we can exchange our points for real Fiat currency. 1 Mana coin is 100,000 dollars. we wouldn't have to worry about neetbux.

after i get the soupchan.org email address, i don't know what i'm going to live for... i'm top percentile in mana acquisition on a dead vibecoded banana bread message forum for adult virgins. that's the only thing god made me for.

l-let me!!!

tasty food + movies/tv shows provide the best escape from reality. movies alone are too boring without food. i need to be comfy with tasty food to enjoy watching a movie.

when i was on a low fat diet for 5 months my dick stopped working entirely for 3 months and i became emotional and soybrained. it was a very weird time. i was trying to fix my acne but it came back when i stopped the diet. the lack of a sex drive made me depressed and unmotivated too i just laid in bed all day watching youtube videos mindlessly.

actually, there are small communities like that, but they're still very ethereal - general threads on 4chan. after some time, you end up interacting with the same people over and over and people start giving each other nicknames and identifying each other's posting styles. there's usually several regular posters that post every day and then there's a steady influx of newfags that come in, hang out, ask their brainfart question and leave eventually. i hang out in several of these types of generals related to my interests. they're pretty comfy, like IRC chatrooms back in the day.

i guess what ruins everything is: people. too many good damn people.

there's more and more people on the internet, but there's less and less honest and genuine attempts at interaction. people just scroll, rarely do they write a comment and if they do, no one is going to see it cuz it's buried by other dogshit and algorithmic chance. we need more small, tight-knit communities like this one. i spent my teens on this small tech hax0r forum just helping people out with stuff and learning shit, it was awesome. no such place exists anymore, i'd end up on twitter, shitgram, plebbit and other aggregators, i wouldn't be able to leave a mark on a community because i'm one of a million other dipshits trying to say something witty and get upvotes.

the internet is becoming deader and deader in general. 4chan, reddit, youtube, this place all have noticeably less people posting. it's the end of the times.. or are people going outside more?

can you all comfort me for being a lolcow, low functioning, autistic, man baby retard soupchan admin fat peppa fuckwit?

apparently caffeine restricts cerebral blood flow by 20 - 30%.... how fucked is that. i spent most of last night just having insanely weird blood pressure changes and weird feelings in my heart from this shit. its all part of withdrawals. feels bad man. have a bad head ache now.

i spilled a whole can of redbull on the floor... my electronics seem to be fine, so far...

all signs point to me having to go outside this month. how do i mentally prepare for meatspace?
i'll pick a cold day so i can hide better under winter clothes, but it will a toughie...